well well, i've got found out by Corinne, yes, on this blog! Ha!~ Oopsy =X

And before you know it, i'm now linked to SAJC Dance Blog. Haha. So more people can see what nonsense i have here from now on. Must restrain from being so himbotic. if not the world world will know i'm not only a himbo but a mitch (male bitch) ;)

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that's me with the shades from cynthia and my favourite NUM.com Singapore tank top =)

hey cynthia, here's the so delayed pic. good choice!~ ;) really love it lots. thanks!~ =D see ya around and hope to be *itching around with ya soon ;D

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i need sleep.

badly.

one more thing to celebrate about...

I'M FINALLY 171cm!!!~

yay!~ rejoice!~

i've finally grown another cm. i thought i stopped growing.

oh well, i know i'm still short but i can still can grow lor =)

the last day of term 2 2006 =) 

ha. as usual.

i'm camera shy. can you believe it? =)

as usual also la. the two bimbos meddling with my phone =)

iven looks farnie. LOL =X

awww... don't we look like a perfect couple? ;P

stupid things we do in school.

and this, you won't believe it.

here goes...

haha. we know we're nonsensical and funny.

but it's just us =)

i'll definitely miss the laughters with OOPS during lectures and tutorials and the crap we talk about for the next month.

well, it's the HOLIDAYS again!~

but it's definitely not my holidays.

here's a preview of my schedule:

week 1

mon: dance

tues: dance

wed: dance

thurs: dance

fri: dance

sat: dance then to Bangkok

sun: Bangkok

week 2

mon - wed: Bangkok

thurs: dance

fri: dance

sat: dance

sun: actual hols start. but it's back to the books =(

yeah. that's how bad the trainings are. if not for the trip in the middle, i think i'll go crazy of dancing =/

but but but, dance still rocks my life =D

*

oh well, on a lighter tone, let's have some more nonsensical pictures i took today to end off the day!~

i've always wanted to know how it feels like wearing boots.

now i know. haha!~

next up...(if the seniors see this, i'll be killed, but here goes...)

haha. stupid me. this is definitely not glam.

it's just funny meddling around in the dance studio's dressing room. haha!~

now let's hope i don't get found out =X *winks to Khaireen*

***

even if the whole world loses faith in you,

i'm still here.

i'll always be here rooting for you =)

last day of PE on tuesday with Alan =)

it's no sin sleeping in class.

especially when you've already done all your work =)

a student coucillor ...

sleeps in class =)

as usual, no one would be interested in physics.

and there i go with the camera again... =D

*

just went to the dentist and got my hole filled up.

let's hope it doesn't hurt anymore. if i does, i'm even more screwed up =/

seriously, i detest toothaches and dentists.

actually, dentists are nice people. just that i abhor the things they do to your teeth and the pain and agony they bring.

lemme repeat this.

i hate toothaches!~ =/

seriously.

i should cheer up.

things aren't that bad. =)

darn. the toothache's really bugging me =/

when i needed a pillar of support...

no one was there.

no one.

i shouldn't be living here.

i shouldn't even be exisiting on this earth.

i'm better off dead.

red is dead.

where's love?

i'll remember

ours.

*

what're you hiding in your arms,

till there's no space for me?

i can only see a desert in your heart. 

a smile without loneliness.

a hand without warmth. 

*

where's love?

where's your love?

where're you?

where's the you that belonged to me?

the past's.

the happiness we had.

it's changed.

it's gone.

can you really bear to leave it?

i can't.

where's the heart?

it's been suffering.

where's the promise?

it's been broken.

where's my love?

where did you leave it?

*

what've you been thinking of?

your lips have no time for mine.

i just wanna hear you say those few words again.

but there's only silence.

did i lose my way,

and walked into another person's dream?

we used to be that close.

but now we seem like strangers.

*

i really missed the days when we started out.

i really do.

*

the silence.

one's not enough.

i miss your kiss terribly.

i miss your embrace.

somethings just have to change...

and looks like things won't be like before anymore...

the day after the glory against RJC.

and the school was still high on the morning after the match.

finally after 17 years, our rugby boys did us proud again! =)

push saints, push!~ =D

the girls were complaining and amazed at how perky my as* is.

gees. i'm born with it. can't help it =)

that's unique among the guys n not many have it k.

and i'm proud of it =)

seriously, SOMEONE NEEDS TO TEACH ME HOW TO POINT MY TOES.

I CAN'T POINT MY TOES!!!~ =(

HELP!!!~~~

*

dance is taking over my life man...

just look at my schedule for the holidays!~ :sweat: =(

***

just give me some more time...

red is coming back.

hey boy,

you pathetic boy.

what have you been doing for the past few days?

hey boy,

you irritating boy.

what have you been doing for the past few days?

hey boy,

you sympathetic fool.

what have you been thinking of for the past few days?

hey boy,

you disgust me.

hey boy,

you annoy me.

hey boy,

you're not yourself.

hey boy,

look at yourself now.

hey boy,

look at your pathetic state now.

are you happy?

are you satisfied?

are you full of regrets or are you full of agony?

are you still full of pain or are you still full of sufferings?

hey boy,

only you know it best.

***

if you don't like me, there's no necessity for you to visit my blog.

look at yourself in the mirror, for who are you to comment?

i'm just a little soul in this gigantic world.

for i don't need your attention.

if you wanna give me attention, i'm not gonna care.

coz there's no need to waste my time on you.

time is precious.

treasure it.

if you're gonna spend it unwisely, you'll live to regret.

for how much stupidity and childishness is displayed of you.

it's just such a sight to see.

goodbye 'spammers',

for there's no longer a need for me to even glance at you.

farewell 'spammers',

for there's not even a need for me to even spend a second on you anymore.

frankly,

if the boy had plucked up enough courage,

he would have killed himself by now.

death may not resolve everything.

but, at the very least,

the boy need not go thru the pain, agony and suffering any more.

it may be the boy's poison, but it's another's food.

*

the boy tried to smile every day.

but sometimes, it just gets too tough.

*

the boy had learnt his lesson.

but don't you think it's a lesson too hard.

too hard for the boy.

it's just too sudden.

he's only a boy.

he can't take this.

and you know it.

*

the sun will never shine.

the rain will always fall.

the winds will always blow.

the clouds will always be dark.

***

i could say love a million times.

but would you stay behind?

i'm not as strong as you people think i am anymore.

i've already lost grip of myself.

i'm not the hong heng/red you guys used to know.

i'm really sorry to disappoint every one.

i'm sorry.

no one will ever understand what i'm going thru now.

no one...

it's something too dark.

too dark...

***

the boy crossed roads, bridges, people.

but he's lost.

he wants to take lead from the one soul he trusts

but,

that soul didn't want to take the boy to where he was previously...

is it that difficult to bring the boy back?

all these are tormenting the tiny fragile inner world of the boy.

no one will understand the pain, the agony he's going thru now.

now, the boy has learnt to bottle up and hide all his inner feelings and thoughts.

he wants to return where he last was before the river.

that's all he asks for now.

at the very least,

the boy just needs someone to hear him cry.

that's just what he needs most now.

a boy cried at the river.

for what he did for the past 8 months.

for all his selfishness.

for all his demands, too high, that gave way eventually.

did he deserve it?

i think he did.

now, he's gone away from the river...

maybe he'll return...

someday.

***

Angelyn, i'm sorry. not that i'm against you but it's a personal thing against that. please pardon me. thanks for the understanding =)

Nevertheless, you still can use my locker for publicity =) all the best for elections! =)

***

red is breaking down.

the clouds are coming into vision.

the sky is getting out of sight.

you are dimming into dark.

i'm sorry for everything.

all the troubles...

all the pain...

all the agony...

i'm really sorry.

SAJC Dance Society's Rapture'06 :

4 August 2006, Friday, 7.30 pm, Esplanade

SOLD OUT!!!

thanks for everyone's support!~ cya then!~ =D

***

from: SAJC Dance Blog =D

love is the most natural feeling...

just like how the white clouds accompany the blue sky.

***

i'm sorry i darkened your world.

i'm sorry i became the dark cloud.

i really didn't mean to pollute you.

let it rain...

then will everything be fine again.

***

i'm still waiting for you.

and i will always be...

without you, my night is exceptionally dark.

i can only shut my eyes to feel you.

can i just hear you say 'i love you' once more?

i wanna return to your arms...

once more.

the seventeen special.

i'm officially 17!~ =D

lunch at breeks with my 2 most beloved group of friends - the gang and hua pings =D

dinner at Swensen's with the megastar!~ =D

my firehouse at Swensen's! =D

could never thank him enough for all that he've done!~ thanks many millions!~ you rock! =D

***

yesterday's nite programme sure made an impact on me.

another turning point in life...

it was exciting indeed.

it was fun indeed.

but it was scawee too =/

i'm not as simple as you think i am.

but...

i'm not as complex as you think i am too. =D

happy =D

***

the early morning activities were definitely great!~

especially with you around!~

=D~~~

***

Izzah dearest, i really don't blame you for what that has happened. No one expected it and please don't reproach yourself. It's no one's fault. It's very dear of you to plan it too! I really appreciate what you've done for me, dear. And i've got more birthdays to come too!~ =D For all you've done, thank you! =D

***

My dearest gang. what can i say. you've surprised and touched me once again. i really appreciate all that all of you had done for me! and you guys were never forgotten! thanks for all the expenses spent just for me!~ (really feeling very guilty for you all to spend so much le). thanks many millions! just wanna let all of you know that you guys will always be in my heart! many loves! catch up again soon yeah? (and the next time round, let's hope everyone in the gang gather!) =D

Hua Pings! as usual, you guys always know my liking and disliking for stuff. thanks for the expenses spent. it has always been great hanging out together!~ catch up again sometime soon yeah? and happy birthday fish! it's just 2 more days! =D

you-know-who... thanks for everything you've done. for all the sacrifices you've made, all the agony you've gone through, all that you've done for me, they'll be kept in the heart. no one can ever replace you in my heart and i mean it.i'll stick onto you forever!~ =P thanks many millions!~ =)~~~

Vincent dearest. hmm how can i forget about you! thanks for being such a sweetie to call all the way from US! was really surprising! really appreciate it! so sweet of ya! =D hope to see ya in singapore soon!~ =D

***

thanks to everyone for all your wishes!

hmm but... where my present? lol =P just joking!~

i've realised that presents aren't everything. the most important things for me on my birthday are sincere wishes from people, being able to be with my dearest family, friends and loved ones and to be happy!~

***

till the next time!~

home sweet home this morning!~

thanks for everyone's greetings today!~ you people really exploded my inbox throughout the whole day!~ love ya all!~

not at home now =P going for part II celebrations!~ till the next post!~

thank all of you for the wonderful day especially my dearest 'gang' & Hua Pings and Neil!~ Love every single one of you guys!~ Thanks loads for the presents too! MUAKZ! =D

sweet seventeen indeed!~

the RED selection

theredselection.blogspot.com

the finest selection of the RED collection.

everyone's looking...

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SEXY SEVENTEEN!~ =P

the blog's finally recovered!~

YAY!~ *rejoice &  jumps about*

***

introducing the new Physics lecturer...

with a pail!~

other than Mr Fong, she's the other lecturer that can teach really well. looks like physics isn't that hard, is it? ;)

***

Shiwei with his birthday present from the class -_-

thank god i didn't receive anything from the class *phew*

***

look at the cute little kiddies from SAJS at the track for their runs =D

***

look at this!~

isn't the drawing so nice ^_^

***

not so grown up kiddies after lunch =D

***

SG Elections 2006...

who will you vote for? =D

***

went to FMO for recording today...

and i thought singing wasn't that difficult.

but i was proven wrong!

managed to do trial recording only but it was still fun!~ ... but tiring!~ =P

thanks for your patient guidance along the way!~ =D

***

re-rebonded.

i'm havin my 3-hour break now coz my Math teacher is involved in polling thingy =(

sad.

nothing to do.

yi mei's just beside me now =D and the rest of OOPS having PW discussion -_-

Tblog hasn't resolved the problem yet so you still cannot load my page properly.

Thus, i declare that this blog is UNDER MAINTAINANCE/UPGRADING.

SORRY FOR ANY INCONVENIENCES CAUSED =D

gonna go for lunch soon!~ =D

i've been eating non-stop like a pig in school these days. god knows how much mass i'll pile on =(

but i guess the dance trainings should be able to make up for it =D

more updates the next time round!~ =D

eat. sleep. dance. REPEAT.

there's something wrong with Tblog, thus my blog will not seem like usual.

so i guess i can't do much now. Let's just sit back and wait =D

not in the mood to blog le =(

***

Tickets for Rapture'06 are running out fast and if you don't believe, fine.

but..

don't come crying to us dancers when you can't get your tickets when you think "the time is nearer to the performance"

seriously, i don't know why people can get their tickets for concerts of their fave stars so early and complain that our performance is still so far when both are about the same situations.

***

memories resurfaced.

bad memories.

i just wanna hide from the ugly reality.

i need to let go.

i need support.

i need shelter.

i need protection..